100. {12/30/09} Oh my heaven…today’s the last day of the 100 Things I Fear challenge! And to celebrate I left my family at home, drove up to Sacramento, and got together for drinks with Ronna. I met Ronna on-line and it’s a bit scary to make that transition from on-line friends to in-person friends. My teenage daughter was like, “How can you do this? You tell me not to do this!” But, Ronna and I have grown an amazing friendship and we meet every week over the phone to support one another in our business development. I have to admit that there was a small part of me that was like, “What if this chick is going to take advantage of you?” but in my heart I knew it was safe and she is so awesome! I had so much fun and after connecting with her I felt empowered and capable. What a fabulous way to complete this challenge. Woohoo!
Now, I’m going to bed. You see, although this blog post is being published on 2/24 at 9:18am, it’s actually 10:30pm on 1/2! I just spent the entire day writing and scheduling 56 blog posts to share all the fears I faced. Whew. I am really ready for bed.
99. {12/29/09} Today I reconnected with an extended family member that I haven’t seen for about 7-8 years. I was nervous, but it was fun. All I had to do was be myself and that’s easy :~)
98. {12/28/09} Today I gave myself permission to focus on work even though The Fam was off of work and school. I went to a 3 hour writing session, held my monthly coaching call, and posted to my blog. It was wonderful. Oh yeah, and I asked The Hubs to help out with The Girl so that I could work some more! It felt so good to do my thing even though part of me was like, “You’re supposed to be focusing on family right now.” It just amazes me how black and white that pesky little voice of fear is. As if I’m a bad mother if I’m not 100% focused on family all the time. That’s ridiculous and I’m proud of myself for not holding myself to an unobtainable standard.
97. {12/27/09} Today I wrote a totally and completely honest email invitation to my subscribers. It’s not that I have written non-honest emails in the past. But, this email was written from a more vulnerable place. I simply shared the truth about where I was at without trying to pretty it up. And I got such a great responses back too! Yippee :~)
96. {12/26/09} Today I told my daughter that I didn’t want to go shopping with her because it was the truth. I really didn’t feel like shopping. But, I felt so bad because it was our first day back together after a week holiday and fear said that “a good mother would spend every waking moment with her daughter.” Oh yeah, I’m letting that one go! Because a truly good mother is an honest one who shows her daughter that it’s okay to do your own thing.
94. {12/24/09} Merry Christmas Eve! I didn’t shower today! I put on my jogging clothes and then ran all over town with no makeup and my hair in a ponytail. I went shopping, shopping, and more shopping. I bought all the last minute gifts and food stuff I need for tomorrow’s family gatherings. I must say, it is fearless to gallivant around town au natural :~)
95. {12/25/09} Merry Christmas! Today I went to my in-laws without The Hubs who is at home sick. This is amazing movement for us as the in-laws and I haven’t always gotten along. But, we’ve done a lot of work over the last couple years and now it’s paying off. We spend time together because we like one another and want to connect on holidays. Woohoo!
93. {12/23/09} Today The Hubs and I traveled back from Florida with my father-in-law, his wife, and my brother-in-law. We arrived at the airport in two separate vehicles and instead of waiting for the rest of the party I went ahead and checked in and went through security. Even though fear was saying that I was supposed to wait and go in together, I gave myself permission to travel at my own speed. I’m kind of anal about getting through security with plenty of time to spare. Plus, I wasn’t feeling very social.
You know, one of the things I’ve learned through the 100 Things I Fear challenge is that it’s these little, small, and seemingly insignificant fears that really make a difference in life. I mean, think about it. How many times a day are you letting that whisper of fear call the shots? I challenge you to pay attention and the next time you hear it, say no, and choose for yourself who and how you are going to be.
92. {12/22/09} I ordered a glass of wine with lunch & dinner! I was dining with some Christian folk and I was totally afraid of offending them by drinking a glass of wine. But, when it came down to it I decided that it was okay to drink what I wanted to drink. And I did. And it didn’t offend anyone. Well, at least that I know of!
91. {12/21/09} I shared my frustration about a situation without attacking anyone. I was afraid of sharing how I felt, but I simply couldn’t sit back and not say anything. It actually turned out to be very helpful as everyone learned more about each other in the process.
