The Space in Between

I haven’t really talked about it much. It feels tender. But, it also feels right.

You see, a few weeks back I decided to take a leave of absence from my job at New Thought Center for Spiritual Living. I started working there at almost the same time I started ministerial training and for the last couple of years I’ve been going to school full-time and working almost full-time too.

It’s been an incredible learning experience and it has also stretched me to the max.

The thing about being stretched super thin is that it’s not sustainable. So as I wrap up these final months of training and get ready to take senior exams, I knew I needed to slow down.

I felt this need to pause and ruminate in all that I’m learning. My soul yearned for spaciousness and quiet time to reflect, discern, and feel into what’s mine to do and be.

So the other morning when I went for a jog (something I never did when I was working!) it dawned on me:

I’m in the space in between.

As soon as I thought it, I knew it was true. I also realized that I needed to allow myself to stay in the space in between. I decided to stop trying to figure everything out and to focus on taking exquisite care of myself. I would do the things I’d been wanting to do and the things I love to do. I would catch up on homework and read all the things.

I would let go of going somewhere and just be right where I am.

As much as I intuitively know this is exactly where my soul needs me to be, I’m not exactly comfortable here. I’m way more comfortable going, going, going, working, working, working. There’s something reassuring about the black and white living of busy-ness.

But, I’m willing to slow down because I know that letting my soul unfold requires time, space, connection, and presence.

So, I’m doing it. I’m staying put in the space in between – even when it feels uncomfortable (especially when it feels uncomfortable!) – and I’m just going to see what happens. I’m going to let it unfold.

Posted by Cassandra Rae

Cassandra Rae is a ministerial student and practitioner with the Centers for Spiritual Living. She is passionate about an empowered spirituality that improves our every day lives, values diversity and inclusion, and provides space for our humanity.

8 Replies to “The Space in Between”

  1. Chuck & Geri Willis March 11, 2018 at 3:14 pm

    Dear Cassandra,

    Thank you so much for your wisdom in choosing self-care and nurturing along with the call of meaningful activity as you approach the conclusion of your studies and the mystical transformation that will follow. Please know that we continually love and support you throughout your sacred journey.

    I am reminded by your sharing that Enniagram Type 3’s are typically challenged by staying in place and NOT doing in comparison to the other types. I know this has been true for me, so I can identify with what you have shared. I am further reminded of the 52nd Gene Key, whose archetype is the journey from Stress through the gift of Restraint toward the essence of inner Stillness. In other words, I sense that you are on to something really important that will serve you – and others – for a long time to come.

    Much Love and Many Blessings to You, Sacred One!

    Chuck & Geri

    1. Thank you so much, Chuck & Geri! I feel the love and am so grateful for both of you. You are right: I am an Enneagram Type 3 and I am very challenged by not doing. It’s stretching me in unexpected ways and although uncomfortable it is so good for me. I do believe this in between time has the potential to shift my consciousness as a minister and I am leaning into this possibility with an open and available heart.

      Hugs,
      Cassandra

  2. Good for you, Cassandra! And … I’m not a bit surprised. You are good at listening to divine guidance and then following it. Of course it takes you into an uncomfortable space of uncertainty and waiting – that’s where faith lives. You’ll know what to do in this ‘in between’ space. I’m holding you with love and joy.

    1. Thanks, Jane! You are one of my role models for listening to and following divine guidance so your acknowledgment is very meaningful. It’s also helpful to be reminded that I’ve followed before and I really can follow again (it’s easy to forget!)

      Here’s to living in faith,
      Cassandra

  3. YES! I’m so happy and grateful for you. You are an inspiration to me and I admire your dedication, your courage, and your willingness to say yes to what is right and true for you. I’m so thankful for all of the blessings you’ve helped make possible in my life. The world is blessed to have you in it.

    Psst … This post really resonated with me right now!

    Love you!

    1. Thank you, Jason. You’re an inspiration to me too and I so appreciate your words of acknowledgment and encouragement. Miss you and love you, Cassandra

  4. Incredibly insightful. I think taking care of yourself now will pay dividends in the future. You are always worth it!

    1. Thanks Dr. Cooper! Your kind words are very supportive.

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