Oct 03 2009
Are you pushing your worst fears into reality?
Even though I haven’t continued with the blogging book club, I have continued with my 15 Minutes of Nothing. Well, I guess it’s not really “Nothing” any longer. You see, I’ve turned it into a mediation and I like to take notes when I meditate. In fact, lots of times my meditation notes are a transcription of an inner dialogue like this:
“All that you’ve ever wanted to achieve has come to pass. It’s only a matter of calling it to you and through you. You have that power: to experience it or not. It’s up to you. what do you choose?”
Oh wow! That’s both comforting and disturbing.
“Such is the nature of truth so often.”
Can you give me some advice?
“Always searching, this one. That’s the problem: the search. I know it feels productive, but it’s not. It’s harder to search. It’s easier to get still and allow the answer to come to you.”
But, that’s giving up control!
“Is it? Or is it the most powerful form of choice that far surpasses control?”
Oh! I guess control could be an illusion of choice.
“Control is an illusion of safety. In reality, it is the most dangerous of forces: you push your worst fears into reality.”
Ouch!
“Yes. Ouch.”
Well then how do I let go of control?
“Notice the pattern of searching.”
Yes, I see it. I can’t help it.
“That’s okay. Love yourself through it. You only want what’s best for you.”
True. But, why can’t I stop? Oy! Searching again!
“Excellent! You noticed yourself this time. See how you’ve already grown in just a matter of minutes?”
I guess so.
“You guess? Or you’re willing to recognize that this is challenging work that you are engaging in?”
Well, yeah it is challenging!
“And you’re willing to do it. So many sense it and turn away. They don’t want to be bothered to transform humanity. But, not you. You are showing up and consistently too.”
Thank you.
“You’re welcome.”
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FYI, my words are the ones not in quotes. Who’s in quotes? I’m not exactly sure. I just transcribe the thoughts that come up. It’s hard to describe. I know the messages are not me, per say, but they arrive within me. When I get quiet. When I open up. When I listen. When I do “Nothing”. I receive. I’m a little weirded out about sharing it with you. But, it seems like useful information. Well, it has been extremely useful to me. I hope it’s useful for you too.
Have you ever engaged in a dialogue like this? I’d love to hear about it. It’d be nice to know that I’m not the only one :~)
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Simply Fearless Cassandra Rae
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Simply Fearless Cassandra Rae
