Your Infinite Courage

I am so excited to announce that I am facilitating a workshop in Vancouver, British Columbia! It’s called Your Infinite Courage. Check it out:

The fear is real. But, it doesn’t have to stop us. Join in the beauty and strength of community for a soul-nourishing workshop to fill your cup so that you can be who you are meant to be and do what you are called to do. We will address five common fears and the spiritual principles that empower us to move forward in creating the life of your desires. Let us rise up together.

Join us on Sunday, November 18, 2018, 2:00 – 5:00 pm (doors open at 1:30 pm) 

Hosted by Spirit Circles at the Lord Stanley Suites on the Park meeting room, 1889 Alberni St, Vancouver, BC, V6G 3G7

$20 cash at the door (no one turned away)

Community potluck to follow

RSVP on Facebook so that we know to save you a seat. See you in Canada!

The Confidence of Conviction

Right after becoming a licensed minister, I met with a seasoned minister who counseled me about how to fund a new venture. After talking with her I was overwhelmed with the enormity of my endeavor. The reality and scope of my dream hit home and I began to judge myself as small, incapable, and unworthy of creating what I want to create. I was paralyzed by fear.

So I took it into spiritual practice. During meditation new ideas began to flow and I was guided back to the power of the creative process. I was reminded that the fear and overwhelm are not my reality. I was reminded that I’ve been given gifts, talents, skills, experiences, resources, and relationships to support my work, my ministry, and my dreams. In fact, my dreams are seeds planted within me by the Divine. The same power that planted it there is the same power that grows it.

As possibility began to grow in my mind, excitement began to grow in my heart. I was brought back to the delight and enthusiasm of creating something new. I reconnected with the Infinite Presence and Power of God that is always with me, within and all around, waiting and wanting to co-create with me. Trusting that there is nothing for me to do to prove myself worthy, I moved deeper into the receptivity of faith, taking note of the potential things I could do and people who might be able to help.

It’s not always easy to stay in the confidence of conviction. As I move forward, additional fears, worries, and concerns continue to come up. But, they do not have the power to stop me. Why? Because I am committed to rise up in faith. I will continue to show up for my dreams because they have shown up within me. There is a Divine Purpose planted within me and I am dedicated to nourishing it into life.

Now I’m curious. What is your dream? Are you willing to spend some time with it? You see, I believe the world needs each one of us to bring our dreams to life. Furthermore, your soul needs you to bring your dream into life. Your health, your heart, your joy, and your purpose not only enrich your life. They make a monumental difference in the lives of others. 

Journal prompts for you:

  • What is your dream?
  • What is one brave baby step you can take this week?
  • What support do you need?
  • Create an affirmation that will help you keep your focus on possibility, creativity, and fulfillment.

Would you like to connect with me in person about this topic? I’m giving a talk in British Columbia, Canada. Here are all the details:

The Power to Create with Rev Cassandra Rae
Sunday, November 11, 2018
Turnbull Room, Semiahmoo Arts Centre
Located at the South Surrey Recreation & Arts Centre
14601 20th Ave, South Surrey
Sunday Services from 10:30 am – 11:30 am (doors open at 10:00 am)

Introducing Reverend Cassandra Rae!

I have been working toward this moment for more than 7 years! I received the call to ministry in Spring 2011. It was a circuitous route! I went to grad school and practitioner training before officially entering ministerial training in January 2016. And now I have graduated and become licensed with the Centers for Spiritual Living. Woohoo!

The last step of many, many requirements is a process called Immersion. You gather with other candidates for one last retreat before sitting for oral panels. Once you pass oral panels, then you are licensed as a minister.

During Immersion we all had to “Stand and Deliver.” We picked a quote at random from a selection of books, read it aloud, and immediately gave a 3 minute talk. Talk about intense! But, it was also rich with wisdom. Check out the messages: 

  • Don’t set aside important parts of yourself. Bring your whole self. ~ Rev Julie Lobato
  • Living from deep inside my soul there is no fear. ~ Rev Ami Papadopulo
  • The most important thing happening is inside of people…including you as the minister. ~ Rev Jane Burnette
  • There is a song you sing. It has always been there. It always is there. ~ Rev Linda Rengel
  • Reframing “I suffer from anxiety” to “I have a lot of energy and excitement!” I am surrounded and held by the Beloved. ~ Rev Nicole Von Atzinger
  • Everyone and everything is your teacher. ~ Me! Rev Cassandra Rae
  • Release the old pattern of listening to fix and embrace the new approach of listening to be present. ~ Rev Tom Pittman
  • You are a Creative Being and your thoughts are more powerful than you think. ~ Rev Theresa Slusher
  • Every second is fresh. ~ Rev Lyssa Bozeman
  • You aren’t doing this alone. ~ Rev Mary Ellen Cassey
  • My favorite name for God is Love. Touch love through spiritual practice. ~ Rev Kathy Mastrioanni
  • Your uniqueness is your value. ~ Rev Karin Lewis
  • Spirit needed my hands empty. ~ Rev Rosedale Jones
  • There is a Light at the center of all. Your spiritual community is wherever you are. ~ Rev Jennifer Wilde
  • Ministerial school is birthing spiritual ministry as me. ~ Rev Marie Kirkland
  • Why not now? ~ Rev Lynnea Nowicki

After each candidate successfully passed their panel, they would be introduced as Reverend so-and-so, walk through the archway, and be celebrated by their fellow candidates. Here is my introduction:

It was a monumental experience – one I am very proud of – and I look forward to this next chapter in my life!

From Doubt to Possibility

I’m finding it quite challenging to write today. You see, I like to write from a place of clarity and confidence. But, quite frankly not much is clear or confident over here!

I’m in this in between space having finished ministerial training with the Centers for Spiritual Living and waiting to become licensed. I must pass oral panels, which are actually coming up in early August! (Side note: I plan on sharing the experience on Instagram if you want to come along for the journey.) This is the final step in becoming Reverend Cassandra Rae!

The thing is…my path isn’t exactly turning out the way I thought it would. I had this plan for how it would unfold and it’s not happening that way, which is okay…except I’m finding I’m much more attached to the initial plan than I thought I was. 

But, now that I’m writing, I’m realizing that the attachment isn’t really about everything going according to my previous plan. It’s about knowing how and when things will happen. I don’t like not knowing.

All of this is compounded by the fact that I’ve interviewed for a position at an organization and I’m waiting to find out if I got the job or not. Another level of not knowing {yet}.

From this vantage point, it seems as if my future is in other people’s hands and I’m just waiting to find out what’s going to happen. But…

I remember that my intention and my focus have power.

I remember that before new life bursts through the soil that it appears dark and scary.

I remember there are many, many things that are clear about what I want and what I’m passionate about.

I remember that the Universe is conspiring for my good.

I remember that Infinite Possibility is the nature of this Life.

So, I have some work to do. It’s time to get creative. It’s time to give myself some space and remember that while productivity might not look like how it normally looks in my life right now, but this in-between space is productive for the soul. I’m going to let that be enough. 

I’m going to spend some time visioning and visualizing. I’m going to get clear on what I want and why. Job or no job, I am responsible for creating my ministry, for cultivating the life I want to live.

And you know what? I’m excited about what’s to come! I might not know what it is {yet}. But, I know it will be good. 

UPDATE: I did not get the job I had applied for. While I am disappointed, I am also trusting that this is the best direction for my life and ministry.

Belonging, Uplifting, and Unleashing

Focusing on one’s presence really makes a huge difference. Well, I’m sure that Brene Brown mantra helped too! I went to my last Spring Retreat in ministerial training and I had so much fun.

Even more than that, I had a solid sense of belonging. I never felt weird or lonely or out of place. I have a group of friends that love and accept me. I felt welcomed and celebrated. I genuinely appreciated each person at the retreat – even those I don’t necessarily jive with. There was a deep sense of peace within me that I haven’t experienced at one of these retreats before. 

The old narrative of ‘I don’t belong’ is loosening its grip on me. This is a major breakthrough for me – one that I’ve been actively and intentionally working to heal. 

You see, I believe that belonging is a birthright. I also believe that it’s a critical element of spiritual community. It’s something I want to cultivate and nurture as a spiritual leader. So It’s something I need to cultivate and nurture within myself.

One of my favorite experiences was co-creating the Sunday service with my fellow graduates. We chose the theme Uplift: Spiritual Passion Unleashed and I helped to create the program:

Here are the four of us together:

Graduates from left to right: Tamara, Peggy, me, and Aikya

And here is a group photo of all of us:

Spring Retreat 2018 ~ School of Spiritual Leadership ~ Santa Rosa Campus

As I approach graduation and the completion of ministerial training, I am focusing more and more on who I am and how I want to show up. I’m not at all where I thought I would be at this stage in the process and that’s okay. I’m letting go of what I thought it would be and I’m embracing what it is. Because truly there is something bigger at play here and I choose to trust in it.

Journal prompts for you:

  • When do you feel a sense of belonging?
  • Who celebrates you?
  • Who really gets you?
  • What do you want to cultivate and nurture in your life?
  • How do you want to show up?

On Being a Newbie

Remember how I posted about being in the space in between? Yeah, well apparently I’m not that good at just hanging out! In fact, it kind of terrifies me.

So in the last session with my practitioner she lovingly challenged me to explore being versus doing. Ever since, I’ve been in a haze of confusion. I don’t even know where to begin! This whole doing thing is so deeply engrained that I’m struggling to even grasp the concept of just being. Needless to say, I’ve felt so inadequate in exploring this new way of being.

And then yesterday I received an email from Tara Mohr who shared about her experience taking a new dance class for the first time:

This time, I could comprehend that I was simply a newbie in this class; nothing personal about that. I was able to chuckle at myself when needed and – most importantly – I was able to enjoy.

Oh! I’m simply a newbie at this being stuff! Now, there’s some self-criticism around this – like I should be farther along than I am – but, when I put the negative self talk aside, I am so relieved to know that I’m just a beginner.

In her email, Tara referenced this blog post where she talks about giving yourself permission to learn and how a growth mindset can enable you to play and practice. As I read, I felt myself soften and relax. And then I began to wonder….

  • Is it possible for me to enjoy learning about being?
  • Might I really enjoy letting go of all the doing?
  • Could it be that this space in between is actually the best part of ministerial training?

Honestly, I don’t know! But, I feel a crack in the veneer of doing and I’m willing to experiment with just being and see what happens. Maybe being a newbie is the best part of living?!