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Oct 27 2008

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Cassandra Rae

I woke up angry today because…

Posted at 8:44 am under Family & Parenting,Self Reflection

I woke up angry today because it’s Monday, the first day of a new week and I’m exhausted. The entire weekend was non-stop. It began on Friday night with book club. Saturday we left at 8:30am for Berkeley and didn’t arrive home until 9pm with just enough time to unwind a bit and go to bed. Sunday we traveled again to Monterey (about an hour and a half away) so that our daughter could perform. She didn’t end up performing (that’s a whole other issue I may or may not go into). I had just enough time left on Sunday to make a mandatory trip to Costco & Pet Club and begin the laundry I haven’t done for 2 weeks.

And then this morning I found out that my daughter lied to me last night and has been hiding the fact that she wasn’t allowed to buy her bus pass for October because she cut school in September. I mean, damn, it’s almost the end of October and I just found out that she’s been paying her bus fare the entire month.

Okay, so things are not where I want them to be on the home front…on any front really. I’m not where I want to be with my business, with my daughter, with my friend Larissa, and pretty much with myself. It would be so easy for me to seriously beat myself up right now. In fact, that’s what I’ve been doing. And maybe that’s the real reason why I’m angry: I never give myself a break.

It just occurred to me that Coach Vanessa gave me some excellent advice last week about finding freedom through accepting myself. I’m going to go check it out again. I remember that she offered some powerful questions that I haven’t answered yet. It seems like now is a good time to do so.

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  • http://www.hablals.com Gina

    BREATHE! And take a nap! That’s what I’m going to do right now. . .

    Also, don’t attempt to go to Costco on the weekend. Since our hours are somewhat flexible, go midweek.

    Write a grateful journal for 10 things. (Think developing world if you have a hard time thinking of stuff). That will probably turn your mood around.

    Building a business takes time. Way more time than I realized. So you also have to have patience and keep at it. Maybe we can meet this week and I’ll share with you some things I learned about the Internet :) I need to take a nap right now though . . .

  • http://tropicofmom.com Holly at Tropic of Mom

    Aw, it sure seems that when it rains, it pours. Times like these are tough. Maybe a little rest will do you good after that busy weekend.

  • http://www.simplewayscoaching.com/ Cassandra Rae

    Gina, you are a God-send! Do you blog? Because I want the chance to comment back words of encouragement to you too. Thank you so much for sharing your simple and powerful advice.

    @ Holly ~ Yes! Rest is what I did yesterday even though I did a lot. I focused on resting the pressure and it felt so good. I even spent some time in the afternoon soaking in the hot tub. In fact, yesterday turned out to be an awesome day and I know blogging the anger really helped me release it and move on. Thank you so much for your continued support and words of wisdom.

  • http://www.momisodes.com Momisodes

    I’m so sorry Monday was difficult. Your weekend was rather busy. I really hope that today has improved with some rest and your spirits are lifted.

    I have to second the notion of avoiding Costco on the weekends. Such craziness!

    Momisodess last blog post..Just In Case You Didn’t Spend Enough Time In Front of the Computer

  • http://thenicoleshow.blogspot.com Nicole

    I’m angry a lot lately. Sometimes it’s so all consuming! I’m angry at my kids. Or angry at my husband. And then angry at myself for being angry at them. It’s a vicious cycle.

    But that’s what I love about blogging-it helps me see that my emotions are normal and human and give me help and encouragement to do and be better.

    Nicoles last blog post..WANTED: Good Karma!

  • http://www.thelotusopens.com Roshandra

    Cassandra as I READ this I became Exhuasted !!!
    Sweetie you are on Hyper Drive with the Energies on the Planet and energies zooming thru your body and emotions…
    S L O W down…..Balance out …..M e d i t a t e….stop doing so much or generating more and more and more ……create a space around yourself to slow down and get off the computer and more into being in touch with..life ..the slow lane and less is Better…..Blessings…Roshandra ~ The Art of Centering ~ thelotusopens. healing the spirit and soul of women..

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