Welcome to the magical world of transformation…

This morning during my Active Meditation I learned about The Art of Not Knowing.  It came up because I realized two things about where I was at:

1. I need to do everything all the time
2. I have to understand everything all the time

Then I was gently reminded how much pressure these two things put on me and I realized that I always tell others that it’s not why it’s how.  For example, we don’t always understand our feelings in the moment, but if we let go of needing to know why, then the understanding flows.

So today I commit to practicing The Art of Not Knowing, which means that I fully step into the wide, open space of the unknown with the intention of learning, playing, and discovering.

Wow! This is sooooooooo much better than beating myself up with needs and have-to’s.  I invite you to give it a whirl too.  Come on, you know it sounds enticing…

Tags: confusion, freedom, pressure

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Photo artwork by Coach Cassandra

It takes a lot of strength to stand in the frightening space of “I don’t know.” There’s this push – by society, our families, ourselves – to have everything figured out and broken down into nice, neat little steps.

But, then life happens. Emotions come crashing in. Confusion swirls all around. And we find ourselves losing our grasp on who we thought we were and questioning everything.

And to that end I scream, “Hallelujah!”

Because we don’t figure out who we are when we’ve got it all figured out. Nope. We learn who we are and what we’re made of through that dark space of I don’t know because it inspires us to open doors and windows into our soul.

We feel misery and we search for more.

We feel pain and we search for healing.

We feel confused and we begin to question.

So that we can discover who we really are beneath our careers, our roles, our clothes, our makeup.

And we are beautiful.

We are talented.

We are playful.

We are sensitive.

We are human.

And as much as I hate feeling confused, I know that it is a gift from God. It is a message from my deepest knowing that is asking me to slow down, shine that light of awareness, and throw open a new window. Yes, it’s scary. And uncomfortable. But, it’s worth it. Because pretending I’ve got it all figured out and hiding behind perfectionism is a death sentence I’m not willing to serve.

Tags: awareness, confusion, death sentence, God, humanity, perfectionism, soul